What’s the point?

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Someone recently asked me what I thought the point of my writing is.

Here was my response to them:

Suffice it to say that I believe in Spirit over Matter and in One God
Who gives us all we have.

I try to reflect those beliefs in my three blogs and in my books.

The fact remains that my liver was infected with a deadly virus and
I’m doing the treatment for that. I’m also trying to portray what
it’s like to suffer through the Hep C treatment and look ahead to
better days…

Some of my humor is “dark” and I’m aware the drugs do warp things a bit.

I “caught” the virus because, for far too many years, I was not close
to God… But, now that I have it, I can’t just think or pray it away.
God is Merciful but is also Ultimate Justice.

I’m “paying” for a loose lifestyle. Some would call it burning off Karma…

Slow Growth Seen in Hepatitis C Market

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“Jefferies Sees Slower Than Expected Growth in the Hepatitis C Drug Market”

That image is a model of one of the little buggers that infected my liver.

The link below the image is to an article that, basically, looks ahead to new drug mechanisms for treating Hep C.

As too many people used to say way too often: “It’s all good”.

However, being what we, the sufferers, call a “Dragon Killer”, I’m aware of the $100,000 cost for current treatment [ I’m a Vet and “lucky” the government is paying that…].

The company that makes one of the main drugs makes a large enough profit to maintain a 24/7 hot line staffed with nurses.

I don’t wish the treatment I’m going through on future Dragon Killers and truly hope better regimens are found.

But…

With the Weird State of Mind induced by the drugs I take, a “Slow Growth Seen in Hepatitis C Market” could be remedied by CDC: Hepatitis C in Nev. could be ‘tip of iceberg’“:

“The city of Las Vegas shut down the Endoscopy Center of Southern Nevada last Friday after state health officials determined that six patients had contracted hepatitis C because of unsafe practices, including clinic staff reusing syringes and vials. Nevada health officials are trying to contact about 40,000 patients who received anesthesia by injection at the clinic between March 2004 and Jan. 11 of this year to urge them to get tested for hepatitis C, hepatitis B and HIV.”

Moving . . .

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Tomorrow is my day to pack (not too many possessions).

Wednesday, I pay up the first month’s rent.

Thursday, I move from the yellow marker at the bottom of the map to the yellow marker at the top of the map.

A short, easy move for space and time.

Exciting since I’ve been so isolated for nine months and I’ll be hanging out in my new coffee house working on my laptop.

Anxiety-inducing because I’ll be on the Hep C drugs till the end of April and they help make exciting things anxiety-inducing.

Fact is, it could take from two to six months for my body to rid itself of the drugs.

I’ll be taking Whole Food Supplements as my first step toward better health…

In spite of all the drugs . . .

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O God, my God! I beg of Thee by the ocean of Thy healing, and by the splendors of the Daystar of Thy grace, and by Thy Name through which Thou didst subdue Thy servants, and by the pervasive power of Thy most exalted Word and the potency of Thy most august Pen, and by Thy mercy that hath preceded the creation of all who are in heaven and on earth, to purge me with the waters of Thy bounty from every affliction and disorder, and from all weakness and feebleness.Thou seest, O my Lord, Thy suppliant waiting at the door of Thy bounty, and him who hath set his hopes on Thee clinging to the cord of Thy generosity. Deny him not, I beseech Thee, the things he seeketh from the ocean of Thy grace and the Daystar of Thy loving-kindness.Powerful art Thou to do what pleaseth Thee. There is none other God save Thee, the Ever-Forgiving, the Most Generous.

– Bahá’u’lláh

(Compilations, Baha’i Prayers, p. 84)

Emergencies . . .

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Some loving folks have tried to help me by recommending various spiritual or psychological “cures”.

If the barn’s already on fire, try to save the horses first, then the barn.

If you can plan ahead and install a fire supression system, more power to ya !

I had a deadly virus infect my liver. By the time I found out it was there, the horses were dead.

The treatment may be unbalancing me and causing massive suffering but the fire will not spread to the main house…

Lemme Out !

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Many aspects of Hep C treatment are positively insane !

Took my Sunday shot to boost my bone marrow’s production of red cells.

(Wednesday is another blood-boost shot plus the Interferon [ Hey, Ma! Look at me shoot up !! ])

See, the Ribavirin I take every day causes anemia.

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Muscles always ache; bones do after a shot; crap is what I take; doc claims it’s working. . .

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Since the exit’s behind me, I’m just gonna back my way outta this noisome necessity !