Moving . . .

Tomorrow is my day to pack (not too many possessions).

Wednesday, I pay up the first month’s rent.

Thursday, I move from the yellow marker at the bottom of the map to the yellow marker at the top of the map.

A short, easy move for space and time.

Exciting since I’ve been so isolated for nine months and I’ll be hanging out in my new coffee house working on my laptop.

Anxiety-inducing because I’ll be on the Hep C drugs till the end of April and they help make exciting things anxiety-inducing.

Fact is, it could take from two to six months for my body to rid itself of the drugs.

I’ll be taking Whole Food Supplements as my first step toward better health…

In spite of all the drugs . . .

O God, my God! I beg of Thee by the ocean of Thy healing, and by the splendors of the Daystar of Thy grace, and by Thy Name through which Thou didst subdue Thy servants, and by the pervasive power of Thy most exalted Word and the potency of Thy most august Pen, and by Thy mercy that hath preceded the creation of all who are in heaven and on earth, to purge me with the waters of Thy bounty from every affliction and disorder, and from all weakness and feebleness.Thou seest, O my Lord, Thy suppliant waiting at the door of Thy bounty, and him who hath set his hopes on Thee clinging to the cord of Thy generosity. Deny him not, I beseech Thee, the things he seeketh from the ocean of Thy grace and the Daystar of Thy loving-kindness.Powerful art Thou to do what pleaseth Thee. There is none other God save Thee, the Ever-Forgiving, the Most Generous.

– Bahá’u’lláh

(Compilations, Baha’i Prayers, p. 84)

Emergencies . . .

Some loving folks have tried to help me by recommending various spiritual or psychological “cures”.

If the barn’s already on fire, try to save the horses first, then the barn.

If you can plan ahead and install a fire supression system, more power to ya !

I had a deadly virus infect my liver. By the time I found out it was there, the horses were dead.

The treatment may be unbalancing me and causing massive suffering but the fire will not spread to the main house…